GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIFE IS SO...AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GGGGGGAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well....today i went for yf...

...and...it...



Oh man....remember when i said i was gonna go to yf right?
...
...
i still have not went.
Well its not my fault? I"m really really super very nervous about going to a place where i know only 4 people-only 1 reasonably well. well...it all started when russ and i were talking about christianity. then i suddenly decided to join yf. I thinkit was becoz i felt like i as losing faith...i had moments of uncertainty and doubts to which i shamely confess. I feel that if i go to church ofter for worship, i can regain my faith. ...
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I'm still so nervous.
Cosi'm planning to go today. AAAAAAAAAArgh.

It's just so ....

oh man.

Wish me luck.

Blogging always made me feel better.


I've always loved roller coasters.

Instructions:1. Do the "Letter MEME".2. Tag no less than 5 other people.3. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

Template:Dear (the last person who text messaged you):I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1). I think I realized it (2) (3) and I saw you (4) (5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) (11).(12),-Your name-1.

What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister


2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes


3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kbob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife


4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out


5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy statue
Other - The crazy monk


6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. -EmotionalOne
Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed


7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks


8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service



9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college



10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked



11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics



12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain



Now with the template!!!!!!! Okay so "Nikki" was the last "friend" to sms me. Ok here goes.

Dear Nikki
i don't really know how to tell you this, but, our romance is over . I think i realised it when your dog ran amok under a state of trance and i saw you carve your initials into my avocado plant . I'm sure you're frostbitten enough to understand that santa doesnt exist . I'm returning the couch cushions to you, but i'll keep your mom as a memory. You should also know that I told in my confession today about eggplant-fetishism.
Go and drown yourself,
Ryan


But seriously i don't mean it. Its just a joke, however bad it is. Ah.. sorry anyway. :) Cheerios!

Oh yeah i had a few weird dreams thes few nights. ok the first one was wacked. i dreamt that daniel radcliffe was my brother and emma watson( hermione) was his bodyguard, and i was talking to him about life. i think it was triggered by me saying i wished i had a cooler brother. Yeah tts about all for the first dream. the second one was a bit weird but i knew how i got it.
I dreamt i was in a carpark-probably triggered by ehub, in downtown east, and i was a vampire-a 15 year old one. I had killed edward cullen-sorry girls!!!! and was battling sme vampire called jasper. He was huge and really hard to defeat, and i was biting and gnashing at him.(triggred by some twilight trailers and seeing a copy at the suntec bookfest recently and a few copies at christie's house. Then as i was battling jasper, my whole arm morphed into an artificial arm with all the gizmos and cannons with wires and battery packs and all, and i punched jasper and he flew back thru the wall, triggered by my sister's transformers game in her psp. Then he turned into a REAL VAMPIRE, one with claws and wings and giantfeet with overgrown fangs and small slits for eyes. He was snarling and saliva dripping and all that. triggered by the mention of van helsing in yuru's blog. Then suddenly a helmet wrapped around my head, as jasper/dracula lunged at my head, then my arm formed arm guards and my hand suddenly had this giant sword with 5 gems in it. Was wearing a chain mail sleeveless with a shirt underneath, and also giant slippers and knee guards with shorts. SO..as jasper/dracula, jaspercula, was still biting my helmet, i swung my sword and slammed him up into the ceiling and through it. Triggered by another game in my sister's psp-brave story. Then i woke up.
...
...
... uh i've gotta go now-gotta pick my sister up from class. tell you the other fream another time-bye.


:)

ok..i just found out christie tagged me to do a quiz but i couldn't see the post cos it was so piled up on top by other posts-wow,she can really update. ok i'm doing the quiz, then i'm gonna read a book. here goes:-


[1]What kind of person are you?
A...um.. i dunno...a relatively "ok" guy? i guess.

[2]Have you ever stead with someone before?
huh?

[3]Have you ever tried smoking?
Nope.

[4]Who is your 1st boyfriend?
don't have, never will.

[5]Who is your last boyfriend?
See answer to question 4.

[6]What is your greatest wish?
To live a good life.

[7]If you have a choice, would you want to have a boyfriend?
uh! i give up.

[8]If a hunk woos you, would you accept him?
why is this quiz so girly?

[9]Do you love your family?
Of course. except my brother.

[10]Do you love your friends?
yes!

[11]How much do you want for your pocket money?
i get 15 bucks per week.

[12]If you only have $1 now, What would you do with it?
go downstairs and buy an orange miranda drink.

[13]If your boyfriend wanted to break up with you, would you cry?
F**k.

[14]What is your favourite song?
A dream is a wish your heart makes-remix

[15]Who is your favourite singer?
Dunno..maybe david archuleta?

[16]Do you like reading magazines?
Depends on the magazines...

[18]Do you prefer a guy who is the same age as you or a guy who is older than you?
F**king none!

[19]Are your grandparents still living on this Earth?
On my father's side, not anymore. On my mother's side, both of them are.

[20]Do you love your grandparents?
Yep.

[21]What kind of movies do you like to watch?
comedy,horror,adventure,fighting genre

[22]Have you tried eating raw food?
uh...sushi? or seaweed? i really have no idea.

[23]What is your favourite food?
Western!

[24]What is the name of your first pet?
6 parrotfish. but my uncle had a longneck turtle called rocky.

[25]What is your favourite instrument?
i play only the piano-but don't like it that much.

[26]Who is the person that you last called?
My mum.

[27]Who is the person you last chatted in msn?
not allowed to download msn.

[28]Who last tagged your blog, and why did that person tag your blog?
Russ. He simply stated that my blog was a dead one.

[29]Have you ever tried to dye your hair?
No. But it might be fun. i mean, for theatrical purposes.

[30]How many piercing holes are there on your both ears?
Zero.

[31]What is your favourite colour?
Blue,white. I think they are extremely soothing.

[32]How many links are there in your blog?
uh..gimme a sec. 31.

[33]Who is your last link?
My sister.

[34]Who is your 1st link?
Lucas from my previous school.

[35]Who is the middle of your links?
Can't be bothered to. i'm tired of lame questions.

[36]In all the links, who is closest to you?
Uh...depends on how long i've known that person. Uh...dunno >.< russ? oldest friend.

[37]In all the links, is there any person who is younger then you?
Yes, sam, my sister,nikki

[38]In all the links, is there any person who is older than 20 years old?
Mr jae.

[39]In all the links, is there any person who is the same age as you?
Duh, almost everyone.

[40]How many links do you want to have?
More.

[41]If your best friend betrayed you, what will you do?
I will get upset, then set out to know why.

[42]Have you ever fallen in love with food?
uh, yeah.

[43]When will you feel sad?
When i'm lonely and there's no one listening for a looooooong time.

[44]Have you ever regretted doing some things?
Of course.

[45]What is your ambition?
To get a god job in the future. A bit far-fetched but its still an ambition. oh yeah, and to get into princeton university.

[46]Do you like guys who are romantic?
Blahblahblah....

[47]In what situation will you feel that you are unloved?
When I'm excluded from conversations/outings, etc.

[48]Have you ever failed doing something?
Of COURSE.

[49]Who is your idol?
God.

[50]Who is your best friend?
God. and below that comes russ.

Bingo! Finito! Uh i will tag the next few people who tag on my cbox. That will teach them to read my posts thoroughly.

so, today i went to escape theme park(my very first time!!!), with bennett,mccoy,christie,sam,anisha and nikki who came later but never entered the place. i took a train to pasir ris(i'm so proud of myself. my very first time!) Then we saw bennett eating an ice cream. then christie showed up and anisha texted me to say she and mccoy were already on the way, at tanah merah mrt. so we waited and i went to the toilet and when i came out, i saw them. then we went to escape theme park, with mccoy teasing anisha and resulting in her chasing him. then we walked through downtown east and then to escape theme park. pretty nice place actually; a shame its too small.We bought our tickets-me and sam still being "children" cos we were still 12, and the rest had to pay the adult fee for being 13. Haha! age comes with a price. literally. then...We took this ride where you have to get in a capsule and rotate and revolve at the same time. it was kinda relaxing except for one part, where you feel butterflies in your stomach. Next we went to the daytona go-kart.the queue, as anisha said would be too long afterward so we went to queue up first. After 20 mins, we got into the go-karts.ok. heres the description.
There are two lanes.
 First was mcoy,then christie, followed by anisha. Beside it was another lane, with benett,sam and i inside. sam was first in the lane, then me in a black number "16" go-kart. bennett was last in a red number " 21". Then they sounded the horn and we went off, in this order: mccoy,christie,anisha,sam,me,bennett. So once we started off, we have to wind around this spiral carpark-like thing.i was behind anisha cos sam had quickly overtook her. Sam's a tasmanian devil. I remained last second until the next round when bennett overtook me. So i stepped more on the accelerator and tried to overtake him and anisha. So he was on the right side,trying to overtake her, and i was on the left. and anisha was sandwiched between us, the go-kart grinding against ours. She was screaming and we were laughing at her,cos she sounded so pathetic. oops, sorry anisha. Then i overtook both her and bennett, cos i think they bot got in each other's way. So my next opponents were christie.mccoy and sam. But it was nearing the finishing time where we have to go down a slope. So i went down and, just my luck, both sam and christie were at the side;sam, being the T. devil he is, rammed her from behind and she ground the go-kart against the wall. So i laughed out loud-l.o.l.- and tried to overtake mccoy but he had already stopped at the finishing line. So i came in second, followed by,i think, christie,then sam, anisha, bennett. So we were laughing as we got off.Next ride was the superman ride. basically you have to lie down on this platform and they will put some protective bars over your head and your legs and uncomfortably against this support that is place up between your legs. Then, you start and wow! You really feel like your flying. The thing only lasted 5 mins, then we got off to go to the family coaster which was really babyish cos it was so short. Next was the viking ship, which mccoy and anisha said i looked constipated cos i was grimacing the whole time. seriously, you cant believe how high that thing goes. it goes really up high for 10 MINUTES!!! And i was sitting one seat after the end. But it was fun,nevertheless and i went again. Then we had lunch at burger king. I got a BK chicken with fries and a sprite. So we had lunch and then we went to queue for the wet and wild ride.For this ride, you get into two-seater boats and start. You turn around a bend and go up a short slope and go down and water splashed all over you. i was at the back, so i got most of the water. but also, most of the thrill. Then, we turn around a few more bends and see skulls, giant turtles and a giant octopus and go up a really tall 15 meter slope and see the whole park, for 4 seconds before you plunge down. The slope isn't really all that, so you just go down really fast-no butterflies in your stomach or anything. Then we went again,this time with christie and mccoy, who videotaped the viking ship and the wet ride for us;ill put it up another time. Then sam and i went first, sam at the back this time, followed by christie and anisha, christie in front, then mccoy and bennett, with mccoy in front. So splash splash splash, and the ride was over. i bought a quick handphone pouch before i went to change clothes but the insides of my shoes were wet, so too bad then! Then we left to go watch madagascar 2. it was kinda funny i guess. Then we sent sam off to the bus stop, then walked to christie's house where we waited for the rain to stop. i dropped a bag of snacks on the way, but i had this feeling that i had dropped something and it was there and few meters back. So we went to her house, went to her room and played with here light orb thing. then mcoy and nikki were on the bed and we were laughing cos we were imagining a quiz, asking who was last in your bed? mccoy and nikki. HAHAHA! then, we-anisha,bennett,nikki and i left to the pasir ris bus interchange. anisha had to leave first so we said bye to her and bennett,mccoy,nikki and i went to white sands food court to eat. we all ordered chicken rice to eat, except bennett who ate fries. but then he ate nikki's rice later. then i got a mountain dew drink which spluttered all over my ants, making it look like i had an accident. then we watched cantonese kung fu panda in another shop for a short while and mccoy said once again, i looked like a tourist with a cap and plastic bag and sling bag. then since bennett lived nearby, he left next. nikki,mccoy and i took the train. then we went to the mrt and then i was talking and looking behind and then, i had this feeling that something bad was gonna happen, so i turned around and almost smacked into those metal poles for holding onto. well..i didn't smack into it, but my hand lashed out instinctively and i got a bruise for smacking it against the pole. then this couple started stifling laughs at me  and i was feeling really embarrassed and was also laughing at the same time. then nikki left at tampinese mrt and mccoy and i took the train back,he to admiralty and i to bishan. we went thru our videos and he kept playing my handphone game. hes obsessed with need for speed, i guess. then i left at bishan and walked home. The end!

Man, so looooooong since i last updated. think i should update before i forget everything tt has happened to me so far...so last saturday...russ invited hansel and i to his church's pre-camp thing. uh..basically you have to go around playing games that involves you blasting other ppl with water. so...i reached toa payoh hub first and waited and tried to get a water bottle out of a vending machine but it wont work, so i gave up and hey presto, he just decided to show up. so i asked him why i ws there first. he was like, yeah. typical. so,then, we wee walking around tt spot and then saw his cousin whom i started laughing at cos i remember what i said about him last time. then we took a bus there and i was grinning like an idiot cos i was laughing at russ's face and my own thoughts. then we reached, saw some of his youth guys over there, then went to the park nearby. then saw some people that were pretty friendly. uh..oops..cant remember their names-sorry. then, we were waiting for hansel to show up. needless to say,he did..but after 10 mins. then he was like, haha! ryan lim's here! i can kill him. so i told him ok.  then we took a bus there and i sent some songs from russ's phone to mine.then russ took the swing at the park's playground. and i beat russ in the monkey barrs! YeaH! blah blahblahalbhalbalahblahblahblah then i saw dionne and some of the other youth people and then there was an intro, where rus smearedpaint all over his face,ok everyone did that, then i just smeared grren over my cheeks and russ helped me do a venom eye on,uh, my eye. then theres this game where you have to guide this v.i.p around without the newspaper he's wearing around his neck,get wet. and we were armed with the all-powerful....thing that is used to spray plants! which turned out to be pretty useful. but then i saw a bumble bee and panicked. needless to say,my team won and then the next game ,we switched terrorists, and the counter-terrorists. we uh won again. then the next gme, your supposed to find thses 2 lego bloacks-white and black. i found one white one immediately. but we al couldnt find the black one.  which turned out to be in some bunch of foliage. uh next game was tt you were supposed to protect this dude and spray all enemies with your spray-gun thingy. if you could call a housetool a gun. anyway, we won this round, then this guy, if im not wrong,russ told me his name was ivan, who uh..sprayed my pants with water and said, haha you wet your pants. to which i replied,haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BLOG! 1 YEAR OLD!!! wooh!!!!! OK, im done.

Um...This post is gonna be awkward. More awkward than the time i went...ok you get the idea...but lemme get this off my chest...hooboy....here goes...gah. Oh well,you can read now.


Now that school's over, i think we really appreciate how much SOTA has done for us, but mostly,(for me), its all my friends that i really miss, even the annoyance of romit. Sorry dude.


I miss...

1. Sam being hyper around everyone and everything.
2. Justine hugging me.Aw..
3. Mccoy's "FRIENDLY" greetings.
4. Christie's sweet comments.
5. Denise's laughs at my jokes.
6. Anisha's sarcasm

Ok...just decided to do a quiz on yu ru's and nikki's blog. Here goes. Brace yourselves.

01. If you had a choice, what language would you want to learn? Why?
French. I think it's cool.

02. What do you want the most now?
To eat lunch. With more chili.

03. Who are the people you trust most?
sam(If the secret is super-private.),Christie,Justine, Ian,isaac,Denise. Sorry,other guys. No,really. I'm really sorry.

04. Do you think you're confident enough?
Guess so.

05. Five characteristics you can NEVER tolerate.
Backstabbing,Blackmailing,Desporado-ness,really really annoying everyday annoying-ness,bitchyness.


06. What's your goal for this year?
To at leat, go to the zoo with sam and denise and to escape theme park with at least Christie,Mccoy,Justine and Anisha.

07. Ten things about you.
1)Crazy
2) Treasure friendship.
3)Can be annoying at times.
4)Worrywart.
5)Bookworm.
6)Love theatre.
7)Love school.
8)Love books that are about teens and their lives.
9)Love plays that are about teens and their lives.
10)Avenue Q. Heh. I'm not sick or any other crap ok?

08. What feeling do you like the most?
Joy

09. What are your requirements for your other half?
Huh?

10. What do you hate the most?
Being told very LAME AND STUPID JOKES OR INSULTS.

11. Do you cherish every single friendship?
Duh.

12. What do you want the most now?
To leave a legacy or something like that.

13. What do you think are the most important things in your life?
Friendship,food,laughter,fun,self-control and self-discipline.

14. Who do you hope will always be there for you?
Christie. :) Dont get any ideas.
15. Who are your best friends?
Sam,Justine,Christie,Anisha,Mccoy

16. Who cares for you the most?
My parents.

17. Other than yourself, who do you trust the most?
My mum.
18. Who makes you smile when you're down?
Friends.

19. If God allowed you one wish to be fulfilled, what would it be?
To fly.
20. What would/do you like to do when you're with your other half?
Again. Huh?

21. Your status?
Single. Duh.
22. How many hours do you sleep?
8 hours,roughly.
23. Do you own a laptop or cellphone?
Both.Macbook and sony ericsson W980. Sweet!

24. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
Yeah. Hsm 3. Haha. The world's turned upside down.

07. Last food you ate?
Fish.

08. Your dream vacation?
To venise,Los angeles for 2 weeks.

09. Have you been in love?
Uh... forgot.

10. Do you miss anyone right now?
going to. Ramsay and crystal. (Ramsay more.) :(
11. What are you listening to right now?
The newpaper guy's crappy horn-sound.

12. Do you collect anything?
Theme park maps and brochures.

13. Last time you took a shower?
3 hours ago.

14. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
No.

15. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Think so. But unintentionally.

16. If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
Maybe.

17. What's in your mind?
How long this quiz is.

18. Who do you like?
Friends and family. So cheesey.

19. What was the last SMS you received?
From christina.

20. Do you smoke?
No and i never will.

21. Who is on your mind right now?
Nothing. Just blank,black space.

22. Last person you talked to on the phone?
Auntie cheryl.

23. Who is/was the last person to tag on your blog?
Denise.

24. When is the best time to eat ice-cream?
On a hot day;at the beach;with your friends. :)

25. What are you doing tomorrow?
Slack a little. Watch videos. Read.

26. Were you a nerd in 5th grade?
Have no idea whats 5th grade.

27. Have you ever been on TV?
No.

28. Have you ever loved someone so much that you're willing to sacrifice your life for him/her?
No.

29. 3 things about you:
Funny,Friendly-to friends,sarcastic.
30. What's bothering you?
That next year is still so far away.

31. What are you thinking about?
Whens lunch.

32. Best childhood memories?
Fear and joy.
33. 5 of your biggest fears?
1)Birds.
2)Heights.
3)Supernatural that can harm you.
4)Betrayed by all your friends.
5) T*****d. only mccoy and christie know this one, but keep it to yourselves please.

34. Want to get married?
Dunno yet.

35. How many kids do you want to have?
Too young to think about this. But...2.

36. Who will/would you marry?
Dunno yet.

37. Alaska or Hawaii?
Hawaii.

38. Do you love chocolates?
I'm ok about it.

39. Your favourite fairytale?
The magic porridge pot. Oh wait, if thats not a fairy tale, then maybe peter pan.

40. Words for today?
Enjoy life while the going's good.