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{/Yes. --

31.7.09 ( 10:52 PM )

I spent a reasonable amount of time before deciding to write this post. Ok. It's about Church. I haven't gone in a month. cos. well, frankly, i don't feel the love anymore there when i go there. it's like i go there just for the sake of killing time, worshipping god and just zoning out cos i dont have ALOT of friends there. And i feel really pathetic worshipping with people whose lives wouldn't be different, whether i go there or not. I tried go tomorrow, but i realised i had a family reunion-BBQ and i cant go. Might as well go next week. I just realized i miss them quite a bit. And i don't think everybody misses me at all. Well, a couple. But that's it. I'm like, struggling between decisions to go or not. YF shouldn't be just about friends. But i think that's one of the factors that might enhance people regularly attending YF. That ain't working for me. I'll go next week and see if anything has changed.

I hope i'm not being self-centred.

Period.

{/Dreaming of War. --

4.7.09 ( 9:56 AM )

"You may not be interested in war, but war is interested in you."

- Leon Trotsky (1879-1940)

Last night, i had this dream about War..

See, i was in this place, celebrating my birthday, and then suddenly, this creature swooped in and started incinerating buildings with flamethrowers and everything. I think it was a war-robot-phoneix. Then like, the army was sent in and then i saw bombs flying everywhere and exploding against the phoneix's force field. Then i was running to the shopping centre, Junction 8. Then BOOM! Another robot came out from the ground, the hands rotating, shooting missiles. Cannons came out from the back and started shooting. So we ran to the MRT, and we actually got safe there. And we had to stay there for hours. And i had to pee. Then suddenly, we had to become recruits for the army. So i went out and peed and went to get a snack at some shop. Then when i came back, the general had transformed into a monitor lizard, and we rushed to the battleplace. Kept hearing the phoneix screech. Then POOF. I woke up.

{/2nd July 2009 --

2.7.09 ( 8:52 PM )

"Many a man's reputation would not know his character if they met on the street."

- Elbert Hubbard (1856-1915)"

Haiz.

I've been changing. Really. Not like, clothes or anything, just on the inside. i get angry and annoyed easily and whenever someone annoys me or does some stupid thing, i get real irritated and talk back to them sarcastically. This is bad, i know. but i can't help it. Like when my sister asks me to make her bed for her, i get real annoyed cos i'm doing my stuff and she doesn't want to do it. then my mom would come in and tell me stuff and i get angry and i might talk back lah. yes. well. i hope this thing wears off. "remedies" like counting to 10, or taking a deep breath wouldn't work anymore; i'll stay really annoyed until i've had my say or something. I guess i better change the topic.

Something funny today:

today during IHSS, in the lecture theatre, Enoch, as usual, wanted to sit alone. No wait, i meant with his "friends". (Drawings from his comics) So when the substitute teacher told fazira and zunnur and venetta to sit beside him, we all told him cannot, cos * "Mr Skeets" was there.

*Imaginary friend

Then he replied with a, "NO! Mr Skeets isn't here today; now it's just scarecrow and mad hatter! LOL We started laughing like mad. Then, we played along with him; like, we asked the chair, containing the seemingly invisible "Scarecrow" to leave, then we said "Thanks" and said "Bye!" to the door, where we thought scarecrow was. Then we laughed like crazy. And Enoch got mad.

As usual.

Ha. We're kinda mean. Haiz. Sad leh. Huh. Better do my BMA.

cheers.

{/ --

( 4:53 PM )

"The artist is nothing without the gift, but the gift is nothing without work."

- Emile Zola (1840-1902)

Jeez. It's the 4th day of school, as of term 3. today was good; school ended early, for once. Just slacking now... but i've been feeling pretty guilty 'cos i haven't started studying yet. I'm not in study-mode yet, but i better start soon. And shite... got a theatre assignment coming up and i had no idea what Mr Sam said about it... it was kinda contradictory... say something now, then change later... Sheesh. gotta get it done by end of next week. Start this weekend, i guess. We're doing on Marie Antoi-whatever. the story's kinda interesting, but i'm sidetracking, cos i still don't get what we're supposed to be learning. haiz, wait till Mr Ng comes back, then ask him. WHICH REMINDS ME. STOOOOPID BMA. I thought everyone forgot about it.. now i have to do it. and i don't feel like. AAAArgh..

And we're doing dissecting tomorrow, during life science, i think. Some sheep's heart.

shishe... gonna reflect on what i'm gonna do about some of the stoopid crap of my life.

Haiz.