Dear Joel (Kam),

Hi dude. it's been 2 years since we met, and compared with other other people's friendships, 2 years is nothing. It might be short, but within this short time, i've come to know you (Through YD), and i really admire, and love you. You're a really nice guy, with a Christ-oriented heart, mind and soul, and that's one of the many cool things about you.

I've never seen you get angry, contrare, you're always neutral or grinning, and your grin makes the girls go crazy, haha:) i really hope you stay in Zion, 'cos you're one of my closest friends here, and i really regard you as my brother, like, really. Sometimes, i really covet your brother, cos he has such an amazing brother, and i don't. I don't have a brother who loves me, cares for me, or acts as a figure of respect in my life. that's the thing that i covet. a brother who i can love. I know God will say that it's wrong, and that my brother was placed in my life for a reason. But, Joel, mann, you're one of the 2 people in my life who i really really treat as my brother.

I'm sorry that i sometimes crack dumb jokes, or sick ones for that matter, but i hope that you come to understand, that i only do that with people who are really close to me.

And i'm a coward, i can't tell you this 'cos i'm afraid people will regard this as homosexual, and also 'cos i can't say it. so i'm typing this all down, and i pray that we grow in friendship, and that we walk closer to God as the years go by.

You're such a great person bro. See you around :)

In his love, Ryan.

i'm just here, actually, to post crap about the hols.

A few good things:

1) Church camp was incredibly good:D

2) Had YF anniversary and CVP BBQ yesterday. wish i stayed longer for YF though.

3)Did filming for some friends. really tiring.

Bad things:

1) I didn't do all my homework.

2)I havet started rehearsing lit powerpoint.

3) I dont know maths. like, seriously.

This year sucks, and i can pretty much forget getting a scholarship. I created a tumblr actually, but i'm quite content with posting on this. Tumblr was prolly the unloading of my vulgar and disgusting inner thoughts , that i pray for God to forgive me.

I pray also, for my friends, who haven't learnt your word. but i guess, in due time, they will come to know you. i'm gonna post a second post after this, cos its important to me.

~Ryan